Thursday, February 28, 2008

truly metamorphosed!

A new Var writes here today.........
I can't really say what exactly did the trick.... but it happened..
i'm back... and with a bang too!!!!!!!!!
oh well, at least most of me....... :p
I might be a pushover, or too easy, or not street-smart enough.....
but, I'm happy!!!
I'm happy.......
cos i know who i am!
and i wudn't trade that person for anything else in the whole wide world!!!!
All my life i kept looking for friends...
friends were my passion..... i would die for my friends....... they're my life......
they're all i need.........
and it took me much much more than my fair share of heartbreaks to realise that......
I'm the best friend i'll ever have!!!
what's more.... i love my own company..........
i can sit alone all day and not get bored!!!
i PREFER my own company to that of most people i know......
and I am so proud of myself....
and YES, extremely full of myself.........
This, however, does NOT mean i'm perfect, at least not in the general sense of the word.
i still haven't learnt how to hurt people, no matter how much i might be losing.
i'm still a horrible judge of people.. but i have a feeling that's improving.
i'm stil way too generous.... and not only with my money....
I still don't have the perfect body.... haha.. not even CLOSE.......
I still haven't accomplished a lot of things i'd like to.......
i'm still too gullible... let's face it.. i'm a KID!
I still cry... i still get hurt......
i still have dreams...
i still have needs...
and YES, at times, i STILL crave for a genuine friend to talk to........
But........
i Love myself exactly as I am............
and i love the fact that there's not a single thing i've ever done that i regret...
and given a do-over... i'd probably do everything exactly the same...........
No matter how many faults anyone might see....
yes i might even agree with some of them........
i'm perfect for myself............
I'm the only person i know, who can proudly say that she's never ever EVER hurt anyone intentionally.........
I am the epitome of tolerance and patience, if i say so myself.
i'm the most loyal person i know, once i decide somebody deserves it.
i'm one of the most ethical people i know.
i KNOW i deserve everything good that's EVER happened to me.
and the bad things, i'm extremely thankful, because........
this sounds cliched, but, they made me who i am........ every one of them...........
i don't need to say anything really.
i'm content......
and even though at times, even right now, i forget all this,
i digress, and i get upset, and i start thinking..
but i'm ok with that.
because at the end of the day,
i know i'll get what i deserve,
and...
well.......
i'm happy.
i'm content.
I'm simply ME......
and that's all i need!